Do i really need him?

okay well i have been going out with this dude for 8 months now and barely now is when it started gettin rocky we decided to start over again and work things out but now it seems like he doesnt care! its really gettin on my nerves cuase i mean i feel like im puttin 100% into this relationship and he`s not even puting in 50%.okay well Wednesday i was gonna brake up with him but then i decided not too cuase i really dont like being alone i hate it especially round my birthday/Christmas time cuase i dont know i just like feelinq loved during the fall and winter ( im wierd like that) well yea i need help in making myself reliese that i don't need a boy/,man to make me happy! ugh it just sucks being stuck with a loser boifriend that you cant let go cause your scared your not gonna find someone else!